Book ends

Book-ends are devices that keep books from falling off shelves. But some books must fall. And some must end.

And a book ends today. Not just a chapter. But an entire book.

A book that began like a normal story but twisted through random plots, clueless twists and roller coaster turns.

Perhaps no life was full of such extreme fantasies or haphazard dreams. Perhaps no story had such an absent hero. Perhaps no narrative was so eminently Self written.

Though he had his moments of self perceived glories. He had his moments of passionate intellectual discoveries. What he never had was a biological family.

But he had the skill, the Bol-bacchanism of a con man- strong enough to create temporary fleeting families around him.

I wonder rather detachedly how his last days were- whether he thought of any of us in a realistic emotional way!? Or was he forever cursed to be emotionally immune to relations of blood? Did he know what he had lost at the altars of his stubborn irrationality? Did he realise that his children were living their lives with black holes inside? Was he ever even momentarily aware that we – his children – were people?

At least there is solace in knowing that he was looked after in his last days. And that he did not breathe his last in the corner of some street.

Hopefully he has reached a world where every irrational dream comes true and every deep philosophy has meaning.

A book ends. And as I turn the last page, the blurb stares back at me, offering me a brief summary of what’s written inside. It isn’t much. But it’s different. Like Maggi hot and sour.

Little black sheep

O! Little black sheep

Rest in treats.

Visit your wonderland of

Different feasts.

May you have quietness

For your soul.

May you have your deals

All fair and none foul.

May you find silence,

May you find peace!

May you find glory

That was out of your reach.

May you unravel

The mysteries

May your soul travel

Through all your dreams!

  • May you find a road
  • That offers solace
  • May you find solution
  • In some right place.
  • O! Little black sheep

    Who never grew up

    Your small little world that

    Never blew up.

    O! Little black sheep

    May you find love

    May something complete

    Your incomplete grove!

    Finally

    Finally.

    And yet it doesn’t feel correct.

    Nothing did

    And nothing will.

    It’s not about correct and incorrect.

    It’s just a bunch of random.

    This is my random then.

    And this is where I am.

    Now.

    Finally.